You're a little late, I'm already TORN

I thought I saw a man brought to life,

He was warm, he came around like he was dignified,

He showed me what it was to cry,

Well you couldn't be that man I adored.

You don't seem to know, seem to care, what your heart is for,

But I don't know him anymore,

There's nothing where he used to lie,

My conversation has run dry,

That's what's goin' on. Nothing's fine I'm torn...

I'm all out of faith,

This is how I feel,

I'm cold and I am shamed,

Lying naked on the floor,

Illusion never changed,

Into something real,

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn,

You're a little late, I'm already torn,

So I guess the fortune teller's right,

I should have seen just what was there and not some holy light,

But you crawelled beneath my veins and now,

I don't care, I have no luck, I don't miss it all that much,

There's just so many things,

That I can't touch I'm torn.

I'm all out of faith,

This is how I feel,

I'm cold and I am shamed,

Lying naked on the floor,

Illusion never changed,

Into something real,

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn,

You're a little late, I'm already torn,

Torn,

There's nothing where he used to lie,

My insparation has run dry,

That's what's goin' on ... nothing's right I'm torn

I'm all out of faith,

This is how I feel,

I'm cold and I'm ashamed,

Lying naked on the floor,

Illusion never changed,

Into something real,

I'm wide awake and I can see the perfect sky is torn

I'm all out of faith,

This is how I feel,

I'm cold and I'm ashamed,

Bound and broken on the floor,

You're a little late, I'm already torn,

Torn.

Sometimes it's best to walk away from someone you're not a good match with, even though you love them. It hurts like mad to do it. But in the long run it was better. The fact that you're considering this option shows you're smart and mature. is it huh? You realize that love is only one factor in a healthy relationship. ~Justsaying~

Teeeheeee~~

Thank God, its already Friday! yihaaa! 

Thank God I'm still alive in this cruel world of mine!

Omoooo.. sekarang saya sangat lapar. SASAU berada di dalam fikiran sejak pagi tadi..

 Oh... aku ingin makan benda itu.. hurmmm~

Going to Sam's house at 2pm this evening, I wish to eat lotsa foods there *even though tiada SASAU!* 

tp yang penting saya dapat makan sadap!

#Sabahansays tapunnnnnnn tapunnnnnnn dulu kio..

Bumi balung dilanda hujan ketika ini, kenapalah tiada ribut?? Buli saya ber'hibernate =.=' LoL

Ketika ini juga sedang khatam subjek ELE3104 English Language Teaching yang agak killer so-so. 

The truth is *saya pun tidak faham apa yang saya baca ini* 

nvm, ELVY VALERIE fighting!!!

Btw, otak saya sebenarnya bergeliga untuk merancang aktiviti2 semasa cuti dua bulan nanti.
First thing first, I regret that I didn't come for the BR1M interview last Wednesday at LHD.. kalau tidak, RM59 salary per day waiting for me in hand! hurmmm. tepala.. Tuhan bilang bukan rezeki saya.. ceh mcm confirm dapat kan.. haha :D

Second thing, saya perlu kumpul semua Movies, Korean Dramas and TV Series yang best dari kengkawan sebagai bekalan yang hendak ditonton sepanjang musim cuti.. but problem is, both of my external already limited space sudah. gara-gara RUNNING MAN yang memakan beberapa puluhratus G. Maybe I should buy my 3rd external next year =.=''

Next, I want to cooking like a pro at home. Well my interest in cooking and experimenting foods growing incredibly since I stay outside for 2 months during my practicum. Banyak resepi baru mahu dimasak ni, especially Western foods.. 

Mum and dad, you should be proud of me.

Saya pandai masak sudah! cehhhh~ hehehe :D :D :D

Paling penting time cuti nanti saya mau reunion and hangout with my old school bestfriends!

saya rindu gila~gila sudah sama dorang. 

Sabar kamu ahhh, tidak lama lagi saya akan balik dengan tenang!

oya.. Me, O'mel and Coner (my bestfriends at KML, Labuan) plan untuk jumpa di KK during holiday!

ni kali lahhh.. after 4 years tidak jumpa... 

I am super speechless and damn excited!

SUNGAI BABAGON! ini lagi salah satu destinasi yang akan dituju nanti time cuti2 malaysia bersama Rosalia and the geng. Baaa, ada lagi yang mau join? plan untuk ater rafting di Sungai Kiulu macam tidak jadi pula atas sebab-sebab keselamatan. *saya dgr2 ada buaya* yaiiii scary..

 nasib saya come back in one piece hari tu. miahaha~~

On December once again akan menjejakkan kaki ke bumi Kuching Sarawak for my sister convocation day. 

Congrats ELSIE VIVIAN! 

*bila awak nak kerja ni? teringin pula nak makan SASAU kat kedai Ching Fah!*

Ok, setakat itu saja laporan cuti-cuti Malaysia. 

Thank God its Friday again and thank You for the other days also..

~teheeeee~

Have a great weekends creatures!

Wordless Wednesday #15

WORDS I WANT TO SAY TO YOU :)

한국 인사!

Singgah-singgah sini dengar lagu baru dari RUNNING MAN members, Sparta Kookie featuring Haroro and Gelly *oh yeah! my favourite Running Man team* <3

Kim Jong Kook and the two kids

Best! best! sangat best! Pop featuring reggae and rap! 

ENJOY bloggers~~ ngeeee...
(jan lupa click pause button sana bawah dulu ahhhh)

Nah... yang nda faham Korea2 tu, ini English translation dia ok..hehe ^^

WORDS I WANT TO SAY TO YOU by KJK and d two kids :D

[Jong Kook]
There are still a lot of words left that I want to tell you
But I can’t seem to say anything at all

[HaHa]
Without you I can’t live even one day
Even if I die I can’t send you away
I pledge this thousands of times
In frnt of those tears that fell with no sound
In front of your tired shoulders
Suddenly no words came out of me

[Gary]
Our love has become tedious now
We’re standing and praying at the intersection of separation
Wanting to walk out quickly from this staggering maze
We’ve been on this time of weariness for too long
that now we’re at an ending point
I want to see your laughing face
More than anything that will be the biggest gift for me
I want to hold tight your small hands
Walking together as the sun sets

[Jong Kook]
There are still a lot of words left that I want to tell you
But I can’t seem to say anything at all
Now the only word that remains is the words “I Love You”
I can’t even cry and instead just stand in front of you

[HaHa]
I’m sorry that I’m saying “sorry” instead of “I love you”
I’m getting mad rather than grabbing on and holding on to you
When you turn your back coldly now I can send you off

[Gary]
Sometimes I also get mad
Until now I look blankly at the times we were in love
One by one starting to know one another shyly those happy times
Now can we really not turn back?
Do we really want something different, you and I?
Could it be there’s no way to come back?
Right now pleae trust your heart to me

[Jong Kook]
There are still a lot of words left that I want to tell you
But I can’t seem to say anything at all
Now the only word that remains is the words “I Love You”
I can’t even cry and instead just stand in front of you

I still see you in front of me
You still dazzle me oh

[Jong Kook, Gary, Haha]
There are still a lot of words left that I want to tell you
But I can’t seem to say anything at all
Now the only word that remains is the words “I Love You”
I can’t even cry and instead just stand in front of you

I can’t even cry and instead just stand in front of you

P/S: pssssst~ RUNNING MAN is my addiction.. thank you for making my life so wonderful <3

Do not take someone for granted

Midnight already. feels like wanna write down something unsure in here. But dunno what. ah, hantam saja la. Being more emotional and sensitive lately. iskk! CAUTION : Too much thinking will lead to depression. DANGER!

The atmosphere at home sweet home makes me wanna stay longer here but sadly need to go back to that place on Thursday, sitting for final exams next week (luckily only got 3 papers for this semester. only?? ~.~) and then I'll be back home again soon for my long term holiday... yaa, two weeks later. yihaaa!!!

Rasa macam cuti ini sudah bermula. mimpi! tapi berada di rumah sekarang memang mimpi! ter'balik rumah secara tidak sengaja 'coz one of my 'favourite' Uncle passed away 3 days ago.huhuhu... REST IN PEACE my dear uncle. I believe you are on HIS side right now.  
Ya Bapa, terimalah dengan sukacita ahli keluarga kami yang telah Engkau panggil dan bawalah mereka ke dalam rumahMu. Amen. Yang pergi tidak akan kembali...

Mungkin ini saja coretan?

P/s: Do not take someone or something for granted. Its not yours..

Goodnight earth and creatures :)

sweet dreams dear moon..

Thousand times maybe

I tend to believe the best of people and that's why I've been hurt so many times, damn easy to get hurt.

 yaa, that's me. =.=" screw me.

Recently, after SYD 3, I've make the best decision that I thing that would be the best for me. But at the end of the day, I let it happened again. My mistake. How many mistake should I do for the same reason huh???

 Is this what's we called God's will? Is this what He really want me to do? I had no idea. Right now I'm still struggling with myself, forgiveness, happiness and healing memories. I pray not to look back again. 

NOT TO LOOK BACK AGAIN! 

But still, I am stuck in my own world and just don't have a place to go..

Dear God :(

 "If you don't know what you're doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. 

You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it.

Ask boldly, believing without a second thought."

James 1:5

Wordless Wednesday #14

teeeheee~

Honestly..

We used to be so close...

and now we looked each other like we barely know each other.

I used to come to you with all my secrets..

but a lot has changed this year,

I do not know what's wrong.

Maybe it comes from me.

and it tears me up that somewhere along the way I lost you as a 'bestfriend'. 
"bestfriend ?"

I don't think that things can ever go back to the way we were before,

and I can honestly say that I miss you..  </3
I am sorry..

Looooooooong time No C!

dear BLOGGER!

hai!!

bonjour!!

hola!

salve!

lama suda berkubu ni blog, jadi zombie sda, mcm the WALKING DEAD! hahaha. ampun beribu ribu ampun. well, the truth is, I've been so busy with my first practicum since March, continue with a bundles of assignments and going through to my semester 5 final exams. and then my 3 weeks HOLIDAY.

*to sum up.. cakap saja sebenarnya sa malas mengupdate blog, lost some passion into blogging =.=' *

btw, semester ni adalah semester 6 tahun ke-3. tahun depan FINAL YEAR!! kemonnnnnn... x sabar maw kahwin.. tetttt.. apa kes.. hohoho :P eh, sememangnya banyak kes yang berlaku semenjak beberapa bulan ni tanpa disedari. ada yang baik dan ada yang paling burukkkkkkkkkkkk. ok forget it.

baru saja habis menjalani praktikum Fasa 2 selama 2 bulan di SK.KEM KABOTA, TAWAU. satu-satunya sekolah yang terletak di dalam kem askar di tawau ni. hoho.. le me impression about this school?

HEAVEN OF FOODS!! hahaha

Back to real life. tggl 3 minggu lagi saya akan kembali ke kampung halaman untuk bercuti hujung tahun. 

oWh yeahhh!

exam is just around the corner but now saya masih dalam mood "berlugai-lugai" kata orang sabah style.

tunggu dewa "porm" datang then saya akan mula study. lagipun semester ni cuma ada 3 paper ja.

soooo.. kekekeke.. enjoy2 dulu, yang penting jangan turun pointer.

baaa,, sekian laporan.. kita jumpa lagi. saya harap saya akan rajin mengupdate selepas ini sebab terlalu banyak cerita yang tidak dapat diungkapkan hanya dengan hati dan perasaan.. cehhh..

adios!!

au revoir!!

cheerio!!