Spontaneous Thursday #5

Ok malam ni banyak perkara sa mau mencarut sini. sblm 2 pesanan penaja, I'll use Sabahan slang ah..

untuk kesekian kali ini, rest in peace to my dear handphone, sorry saya kasi tamat nyawa ko tadi pigi ampas di dinding. memandangkan tida dapat antak kepala di dinding jd handphone juga la jadi mangsa kan. ok, bisuk sa pigi beli smartphone! ko tunggu....

bgn2 ja dari tidur tadi ada suatu perasaan yg sangat pelik mucul. rasa mau burst into tears, rasa gerigitan, rasa mau marah, rasa rimas, gelisah.. eiiii, nda tau la apa ungkapan yg paling sesuai lagi. dan ditambah lagi dengan menerima balasan mesej yang bukan2 memang la bikin panas hati! kalau ada orang di depan sa confirm jadi mangsa cubit. huh!

ok next sa mau bagitau satu dunia yg sa tidak akan balik time cuti Chinese New Year ni. Tahniah vay! mcm pertama kali pula tidak blk cuti sejak2 bermastautin di IP ni. bukan bermaksud sa telampau sayang dgn IP tapi cuti hanya 4 hari??? skolah pun tidak apply cuti peristiwa on Wednesday. pg apply pula cuti yg bukan2. heh! mumy pun cakap nda payah la blk, tiket flight mahal. Mummy suruh pigi sembayang sja di sini. emm yala... ok fine la, lgpun tggl brapa bulan ja lagi stay sini, bagus sa menghayati bumi Tawau ni lama2 kan.. kan? kan? lol. ba sa jadi sekuriti guard Wisma Mawar sepanjang 4 hari ni. ada apa2 kecurian atau masalah terus berhubung saja sama sa. wtf. apala mau bt time cuti ni ah.... mau pigi minta angpow sama tauke cina la.. hekhek. joking! I should go watch some movies dan steamboat maybe untuk kasi gumuk badan.

oya, 1 benda lagi mo kasi tau 1 dunia ni, saya makin kurus!!!

F!~ kurus adalah bida dan skeleton. haha, teringat pula time skolah menengah dulu, classmate slalu  panggil "skeleton2" sbb telampau slim to the max. berat badan 45kg ja time tu. pui bida! nasib la sejak masuk matrikulasi sa pandai membesar sda. lol. dan sekarang sda turun 3 kg pula dlm masa 3 minggu?? kawan2 pun ckp pipi makin cengkung, badan makin slim, dan seluar pun makin longgar.. mungkin sa perlu borong seluar pelbagai saiz supaya ada masa2 buli pakai time kurus ataupun gemuk. le sighing....
oleh itu di kesempatan ini, sa mau ucap terima kasih sama praktikum dan skolah sk. BQ sbb kasi kurus sa..TQ!

dan... ada satu situasi pelik skrg.. sekali lagi mengalami situasi yang berbeza dan tidak jauh bezanya seperti tahun2 sblm ini.. dan sa yakin situasi ini akan berpanjangan smpai la akhir tahun saya di sini. arggghh, damn! 1 pokok banyak dahan. 1 dahan patah, tumbuh lagi dahan baru. dahan lama buruk, reput tapi tidak mau dibakar. sayang tiada pemetik api. peribahasa yang sa cipta sendiri. hahahaha! terpulang la mau tgk diri ni mcm mana. yg ptg x hipokrit. and I know myself. I drink, but I don't do drugs ok. kadang2 sa sensitif sbb sa ni manusia, ada perasaan. everyone has their own imperfection ba kn..so it depends la kalau mau judging someone. tp jan lupa, anda tidak layak menghakimi melainkan Dia.. bla.. bla.. bla.. mode mencarut..

ok sekian terima kasih! :)

Falling slowly ~ my FAREWELL year

Currently listening to this song, Falling slowly by Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova. I've listen it once before but I totally forget where the sounds came from. 

so fortunately today! I found this song while re-watching Family Outing Season 1 during Lee Chun Hee and Park Hae Jin Farewell episode. and yaa... here it goes again..  it tears me up, thinking that this year will be my FAREWELL YEAR after nearly 4 years stranded in this "not-so-lovely-place" of mine. Although I need to make it through for another 1 year (few months left actually..) but I strongly felt that it's going to end  up soon.
 I mean really soon.
 Now is the end of January
February
March
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November (the end)
Yea, of course this long teaching-learning journey will come to an end. But why is this feeling come to appear so early???

sobsob =.=' me was just so sensitive..

so here it is.. I love the lyrics..till then, enjoy :)

Everyday is a second chance

happy morning! hey its weekend people! teehee ~ ~ ~

I woke up early this morning, as early as 5 am. Thanks to my biological clock.. yeah!

Btw, I kinda regret for sleep too early last night, maybe I should say sorry to him. I promise to have a call on the phone but... at the end of the day, I lost on the bed dreaming... zzzzzzzz

Today I will full-fill my day with school stuffs.. yeah you know, writing lesson plan for next week class, updating my portfolio, printing, etc... bla bla bla.. =='

being at SK. Bukit Quoin for my third phase of practicum was awesome* mabye..
For the first week it was just Okay*, still trying to adapt myself with the school environment, the teachers are friendly, the foods, hurmmmm *sigh* compared to SK. Kem Kabota, I only gave them 5 out of 10!
 oh the kids at school are cute and innocent too. miahaha.. 

"Cikgu, cantik la cikgu, comel la.. cikgu Elizabeth.."
Cikgu Elizabeth? hahaha, class please call me teacher Elvy okay,

I thought I had the simplest name on earth ==' 

anyway, cant wait to teach them though.. ^___^

and that's it, HAVE A GREAT WEEKEND everyone!

enjoy it while you still can, remember everyday is a second chance :D

Teeeheeee~~

Thank God, its already Friday! yihaaa! 

Thank God I'm still alive in this cruel world of mine!

Omoooo.. sekarang saya sangat lapar. SASAU berada di dalam fikiran sejak pagi tadi..

 Oh... aku ingin makan benda itu.. hurmmm~

Going to Sam's house at 2pm this evening, I wish to eat lotsa foods there *even though tiada SASAU!* 

tp yang penting saya dapat makan sadap!

#Sabahansays tapunnnnnnn tapunnnnnnn dulu kio..

Bumi balung dilanda hujan ketika ini, kenapalah tiada ribut?? Buli saya ber'hibernate =.=' LoL

Ketika ini juga sedang khatam subjek ELE3104 English Language Teaching yang agak killer so-so. 

The truth is *saya pun tidak faham apa yang saya baca ini* 

nvm, ELVY VALERIE fighting!!!

Btw, otak saya sebenarnya bergeliga untuk merancang aktiviti2 semasa cuti dua bulan nanti.
First thing first, I regret that I didn't come for the BR1M interview last Wednesday at LHD.. kalau tidak, RM59 salary per day waiting for me in hand! hurmmm. tepala.. Tuhan bilang bukan rezeki saya.. ceh mcm confirm dapat kan.. haha :D

Second thing, saya perlu kumpul semua Movies, Korean Dramas and TV Series yang best dari kengkawan sebagai bekalan yang hendak ditonton sepanjang musim cuti.. but problem is, both of my external already limited space sudah. gara-gara RUNNING MAN yang memakan beberapa puluhratus G. Maybe I should buy my 3rd external next year =.=''

Next, I want to cooking like a pro at home. Well my interest in cooking and experimenting foods growing incredibly since I stay outside for 2 months during my practicum. Banyak resepi baru mahu dimasak ni, especially Western foods.. 

Mum and dad, you should be proud of me.

Saya pandai masak sudah! cehhhh~ hehehe :D :D :D

Paling penting time cuti nanti saya mau reunion and hangout with my old school bestfriends!

saya rindu gila~gila sudah sama dorang. 

Sabar kamu ahhh, tidak lama lagi saya akan balik dengan tenang!

oya.. Me, O'mel and Coner (my bestfriends at KML, Labuan) plan untuk jumpa di KK during holiday!

ni kali lahhh.. after 4 years tidak jumpa... 

I am super speechless and damn excited!

SUNGAI BABAGON! ini lagi salah satu destinasi yang akan dituju nanti time cuti2 malaysia bersama Rosalia and the geng. Baaa, ada lagi yang mau join? plan untuk ater rafting di Sungai Kiulu macam tidak jadi pula atas sebab-sebab keselamatan. *saya dgr2 ada buaya* yaiiii scary..

 nasib saya come back in one piece hari tu. miahaha~~

On December once again akan menjejakkan kaki ke bumi Kuching Sarawak for my sister convocation day. 

Congrats ELSIE VIVIAN! 

*bila awak nak kerja ni? teringin pula nak makan SASAU kat kedai Ching Fah!*

Ok, setakat itu saja laporan cuti-cuti Malaysia. 

Thank God its Friday again and thank You for the other days also..

~teheeeee~

Have a great weekends creatures!

Thousand times maybe

I tend to believe the best of people and that's why I've been hurt so many times, damn easy to get hurt.

 yaa, that's me. =.=" screw me.

Recently, after SYD 3, I've make the best decision that I thing that would be the best for me. But at the end of the day, I let it happened again. My mistake. How many mistake should I do for the same reason huh???

 Is this what's we called God's will? Is this what He really want me to do? I had no idea. Right now I'm still struggling with myself, forgiveness, happiness and healing memories. I pray not to look back again. 

NOT TO LOOK BACK AGAIN! 

But still, I am stuck in my own world and just don't have a place to go..

Dear God :(

 "If you don't know what you're doing, pray to the Father. He loves to help. 

You'll get his help, and won't be condescended to when you ask for it.

Ask boldly, believing without a second thought."

James 1:5

Wordless Wednesday #14

teeeheee~

Honestly..

We used to be so close...

and now we looked each other like we barely know each other.

I used to come to you with all my secrets..

but a lot has changed this year,

I do not know what's wrong.

Maybe it comes from me.

and it tears me up that somewhere along the way I lost you as a 'bestfriend'. 
"bestfriend ?"

I don't think that things can ever go back to the way we were before,

and I can honestly say that I miss you..  </3
I am sorry..

Looooooooong time No C!

dear BLOGGER!

hai!!

bonjour!!

hola!

salve!

lama suda berkubu ni blog, jadi zombie sda, mcm the WALKING DEAD! hahaha. ampun beribu ribu ampun. well, the truth is, I've been so busy with my first practicum since March, continue with a bundles of assignments and going through to my semester 5 final exams. and then my 3 weeks HOLIDAY.

*to sum up.. cakap saja sebenarnya sa malas mengupdate blog, lost some passion into blogging =.=' *

btw, semester ni adalah semester 6 tahun ke-3. tahun depan FINAL YEAR!! kemonnnnnn... x sabar maw kahwin.. tetttt.. apa kes.. hohoho :P eh, sememangnya banyak kes yang berlaku semenjak beberapa bulan ni tanpa disedari. ada yang baik dan ada yang paling burukkkkkkkkkkkk. ok forget it.

baru saja habis menjalani praktikum Fasa 2 selama 2 bulan di SK.KEM KABOTA, TAWAU. satu-satunya sekolah yang terletak di dalam kem askar di tawau ni. hoho.. le me impression about this school?

HEAVEN OF FOODS!! hahaha

Back to real life. tggl 3 minggu lagi saya akan kembali ke kampung halaman untuk bercuti hujung tahun. 

oWh yeahhh!

exam is just around the corner but now saya masih dalam mood "berlugai-lugai" kata orang sabah style.

tunggu dewa "porm" datang then saya akan mula study. lagipun semester ni cuma ada 3 paper ja.

soooo.. kekekeke.. enjoy2 dulu, yang penting jangan turun pointer.

baaa,, sekian laporan.. kita jumpa lagi. saya harap saya akan rajin mengupdate selepas ini sebab terlalu banyak cerita yang tidak dapat diungkapkan hanya dengan hati dan perasaan.. cehhh..

adios!!

au revoir!!

cheerio!!

Wordless Wednesday #13

One word: EXHAUSTED!

Sinyum ni matcam!

SAYA SUDAH BERTEKAD!

 MAW SENYUM LEBAR HARI-HARI MACAM NI.

JUST LIKE PATRICK DID!

^________________________^

Hye Mr.April! Don't try to fool me!

Does it bother you that we barely talk or is it just me?

Cause...

I am too tired to hold on..

My friends think I'm moving on

But the truth is I'm not that strong

and nobody knows it but me

But if you're happy, I'll get through somehow

But the truth is that I've been screaming out :"(

Hye Mr.April Be nice to me ok! Don't you ever try to fool me like what Mr.March have done to me! T.T

Yesterday's Lessons

I learnt a new lessons yesterday. 

(Saturday: 24th March 2012)

First lesson: No phone call in a car.

Second lesson: No radio and musics allowed.

Third lesson: When people is mad, you act like a retard and cheer them up!

Forth lesson: When people give you something, take and appreciate it.

Fifth lesson: FORgive and FORget.

That's what I have learnt so far....

THANK YOU LIFE FOR THE LESSONs. I did learn a lot!

^^

Spontaneous Thursday #4

Happy Thursday people! 

2 days before weekend! horeyyyyyy~ This is just a short post!  I mean really short :P

Ok, now is 5.15 in the morning and its raining outside since 3.00am... the atmosphere kinda icy. I wish I can hug 'SOMEONE' right now. miaahahha :PPP

After this I will get ready to school! oya, forget to tell u you guys,,,, sekarang saya tengah menjalani praktikum fasa pertama di Sekolah Kebangsaan Inderasabah, Tawau. 

Wish me luck for my forth day! and feel free to visit me there. hahahhaha~ 

Ba,, c yaa in my next post! mwahhhhhh!~ 

baBai

Saya si kucing malas..

"............................................................................................................"

Laying on my bed, doing nothing, on9 and staring at the laptop screen.

OMG! I am too lazy tonight, lazy, so lazy.... I mean seriously lazy lazy lazyyyyyyy... 

I lost my track, I lost my motivation..

And SERIOUSLY I need them back...

Aduiiiii, give me some motivation please T_T 

I have a lot, I mean lotsa lotsa work need to be done before the coming holidays, before going to my first practicum...

But now, end up laying.. 

with this uncertainty mixed ups and downs feeling...

tulunggggggggggggg... uwaaaaaaaaaa T_T

Me!

Me malas!

Me again!

Me kucing gumuk O_O

Me kuat tidur!

Me juga???!


+_____________________+

Attacking me again!

Termasuk malam ini, sudah dua kali saya diserang sakit kepala yang teramat sakit.. serangan gastrik? Hmmm, no need to say. Beberapa kali sudah diattack gastrik untuk bulan ni. Sehingga pada suatu hari terpaksa pergi klinik sebab sakitnya x surut2 dari malam sampai ke siang. Walaupun selepas makan? Owh, MA tu cakap bukan sebab tidak makan tetapi tidak ikut jadual makan yang betul. Almaklumlah saya ni makan tidak tentu hari, masa dan waktu. Makan ikut sedap mulut dan nafsu.. Nampaknya salah sudah waktu rembesan jus gaster dalam perut saya ni.. Memang saya perlu set semula jadual makan saya supaya kembali stabil.. 

dan serangan sakit kepala ini? Migraine ? I don't think so. Saya ni jarang2 mendapat serangan sakit kepala sebenarnya. Tapi bila sudah kena.. Naaaa, baru kau tahu betapa tingginya langit, rendahnya bumi, dalamnya lautan. Macam digerudi2 otakmu di dalam. Huhuhu.. adakah saya terlalu banyak berfikir sejak dua menjak ni? atau adakah ini menandakan umur saya semakin meningkat dengan cepatnya?? Mungkin. I really need to eat panadol right now, unfortunately I don’t have any. Totally out of stock. I wish to sleep forever now. Babai....

Live your life! as well as mine!

Look at you. You’re young. And you’re scared.
Why are you so scared? Stop being paralyzed.
Stop swallowing your words.
Stop caring what other people think.
Wear what you want.
Say what you want.
Listen to the music you want to listen to.
Play it loud and dance to it.
Stop waiting for Friday.
Live now.
Do it now.
Take risks.

Tell secrets.
This life is yours.
When are you going to realize that you can do whatever you want?

CUTI AKHIR SEMESTER. BYEBYE TAHUN KEDUA.

hyelow Blogger! hari ni mo post dlm Bahasa Kebangsaan (mungkin ada sedikit western:p) hehehe.. baiklah dengan kuasa yang saya ada sebagai salah seorang penuntut tegar IPG, mengisytiharkan bahawa CUTI AKHIR SEMESTER telah bermula saat detik 11.00 pagi tadi setelah selesai menjawab soalan peperiksaan yang terakhir sehingga ke titisan dakwat pen yang terakhir. Maka dengan itu, tamatlah sudah proses pembelajaran ijazah saya pada tahun kedua semester kedua. Tahun ketiga akan bermula pada tahun hadapan dengan cabaran-cabaran yang lebih menggerunkan dengan bermulanya proses untuk menjadi seorang guru yang sebenar. Apa yang cuba disampaikan disini ialah pada tahun hadapan saya akan memulakan praktikum fasa pertama selama 1 bulan di sekolah. owhyeah! sangat tidak sabar yaa disitu. XD!

yehaaaa! yaa teman-teman, perasaan sungguh gembira yaa pada hari ini kerana pada hari esok akan menaiki pesawat penerbangan AK6123 ke Kota Kinabalu pada jam 1.20 petang. Hello Hello sama KK! Sesampai sahaja di KK akan meneruskan misi utama iaitu ke Restoran McD dan bercadang untuk makan dua ketul burger setelah beberapa "kurun" tidak menjamah hidangan lazat tersebut. Moleklah kiranya agar matlamat tersebut dapat dicapai dengan jayanya. Mohon doa dari rakan-rakan blogger sekalian :PPP ehehehe..

Cuti pada kali ini diharapkan lebih bermakna dan menggembirkan hati jiwa dan raga dengan perancangan-perancanagn rapi tak rapi yang sudah dirancang semenjak dari awal semester ini..

Berikut merupakan "list to do" sepanjang cuti panjanggggg ini :D

1. Movie Marathon (dari Korea2 kepada English dan mungkin Melayu)

2. TV shows Marathon (Family Outing, Running Man & The Walking Dead)

3. Manicure & Pedicure 

4. "Baking cakes" dan membuat puding telur (resepi khas dr Nabil)

5. Karaoke sampai hilang suara (biar sumbang yang penting puas! XP)

6. "Curl" rambut (dan mungkin diluruskan semula. haha)

7. <3 Dating sama BFF (pantai, midnight movie, makan2, BBQ)

8. Makan sepuas hati, sekenyang perut :p (salah satu amalan yang paling penting)

9. Mencat bilik tidur (warna cat masih difikirkan. harap2 termakbul. sudah bosan dgn biru)

10. Krismas Deco bersama Cik LV (berseorangan tahun ini tanpa ditemani oleh si kakak :( 

11. Menonton TV sampai subuh (KBS program adalah wajib!)

12. Memandikan kucing-kucing di rumah 

13. Tidur, Bangun, Makan = Kehidupan bercuti!!

^_____^

seLamat berCuti kepaDa kawan-kawan IPG :)

Tahun depan kita jumpa Lagi.

Saya akan rindu KAMU gila-gila :P

 xoxo

Having a Bad day..

First of aLL...

But the truth is...

Today is a B.A.D.D.A.Y for me. Seriously.. :(

and

you can see when..

argggghhh...this is

By the way, no need to bother.

I will just Thank God for what had happen and ask for His wise guidance.. God is LOVE all the time.

(Jeremiah 33:3 Call to Me and I will answer you 
and I will tell you a great and mighty things, which you do not know)

Thank you so much LIFE.. -_-'

bLogging time..

Hi guys! I finished my second exam paper today (I mean yesterday) which is for my major course (Science of course -_- SCE 3107 Ecosystem and Biodiversity). The good news is.. the question wasn't too difficult (I guess... is it so?) except for the objective questions. I was like "WTH" with this? perghh~ For the structure and essay part, it was so-so (bolehla.. I manage to answer it aLL with flying colors! wakaka :P). Oya, I finished it earlier than I expected, 30 minutes before 11.10am. XD~(LoL) Actually, "saya malas suda mahu menjawab, sebab dalam fikiran saya mau habis awal, mahu makan *starving to death* and then mahu balik bilik Zzzzz." (last night I slept at 2.00am doing my revision. Kunun :P) 

Anyway, I have another exam paper for my major tomorrow evening (I mean today).. and 2 more papers for the next days. Blogging for a while and will continue study till dawn after this. Phewww~ 

I will blog whenever I have *free time* now. (err, do I really have that free time??)  Coz I'm afraid and  so sure about this, that I'll let my laptop REST IN PEACE during my *coming soon holidays*. Plus the BB line will treat me bad at that time is a fact. So, I'm hoping that I can write more before my long-terms HoLs! :)

Before you start pointing fingers, make sure your hands are clean!

Hye you!

Because you know me right? You know me so well. You know everything about me, what hurts me, what surrounds me, what haunts me, you know it all right?

You know what I've been through, going through and will go through, don't you?

You know all my choices and the reason as to why I made them, right?

Listen up here! think what you want when you come and mouth off about how ridiculous, or stupid, or dumb, or crazy or whatever else you want to call, but remember that you don't know half of the story, and I doubt when you're start pointing the fingers, your hands is clean, is it? So...

 Thank you very much!