Falling slowly ~ my FAREWELL year

Currently listening to this song, Falling slowly by Glen Hansard and Marketa Irglova. I've listen it once before but I totally forget where the sounds came from. 

so fortunately today! I found this song while re-watching Family Outing Season 1 during Lee Chun Hee and Park Hae Jin Farewell episode. and yaa... here it goes again..  it tears me up, thinking that this year will be my FAREWELL YEAR after nearly 4 years stranded in this "not-so-lovely-place" of mine. Although I need to make it through for another 1 year (few months left actually..) but I strongly felt that it's going to end  up soon.
 I mean really soon.
 Now is the end of January
February
March
April
May
June
July
August
September
October
November (the end)
Yea, of course this long teaching-learning journey will come to an end. But why is this feeling come to appear so early???

sobsob =.=' me was just so sensitive..

so here it is.. I love the lyrics..till then, enjoy :)

WORDS I WANT TO SAY TO YOU :)

한국 인사!

Singgah-singgah sini dengar lagu baru dari RUNNING MAN members, Sparta Kookie featuring Haroro and Gelly *oh yeah! my favourite Running Man team* <3

Kim Jong Kook and the two kids

Best! best! sangat best! Pop featuring reggae and rap! 

ENJOY bloggers~~ ngeeee...
(jan lupa click pause button sana bawah dulu ahhhh)

Nah... yang nda faham Korea2 tu, ini English translation dia ok..hehe ^^

WORDS I WANT TO SAY TO YOU by KJK and d two kids :D

[Jong Kook]
There are still a lot of words left that I want to tell you
But I can’t seem to say anything at all

[HaHa]
Without you I can’t live even one day
Even if I die I can’t send you away
I pledge this thousands of times
In frnt of those tears that fell with no sound
In front of your tired shoulders
Suddenly no words came out of me

[Gary]
Our love has become tedious now
We’re standing and praying at the intersection of separation
Wanting to walk out quickly from this staggering maze
We’ve been on this time of weariness for too long
that now we’re at an ending point
I want to see your laughing face
More than anything that will be the biggest gift for me
I want to hold tight your small hands
Walking together as the sun sets

[Jong Kook]
There are still a lot of words left that I want to tell you
But I can’t seem to say anything at all
Now the only word that remains is the words “I Love You”
I can’t even cry and instead just stand in front of you

[HaHa]
I’m sorry that I’m saying “sorry” instead of “I love you”
I’m getting mad rather than grabbing on and holding on to you
When you turn your back coldly now I can send you off

[Gary]
Sometimes I also get mad
Until now I look blankly at the times we were in love
One by one starting to know one another shyly those happy times
Now can we really not turn back?
Do we really want something different, you and I?
Could it be there’s no way to come back?
Right now pleae trust your heart to me

[Jong Kook]
There are still a lot of words left that I want to tell you
But I can’t seem to say anything at all
Now the only word that remains is the words “I Love You”
I can’t even cry and instead just stand in front of you

I still see you in front of me
You still dazzle me oh

[Jong Kook, Gary, Haha]
There are still a lot of words left that I want to tell you
But I can’t seem to say anything at all
Now the only word that remains is the words “I Love You”
I can’t even cry and instead just stand in front of you

I can’t even cry and instead just stand in front of you

P/S: pssssst~ RUNNING MAN is my addiction.. thank you for making my life so wonderful <3

Hye Mr.April! Don't try to fool me!

Does it bother you that we barely talk or is it just me?

Cause...

I am too tired to hold on..

My friends think I'm moving on

But the truth is I'm not that strong

and nobody knows it but me

But if you're happy, I'll get through somehow

But the truth is that I've been screaming out :"(

Hye Mr.April Be nice to me ok! Don't you ever try to fool me like what Mr.March have done to me! T.T

Haunted.

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
But I never thought I'd live to see it break

It's getting dark, and it's all too quiet
And I can't trust anything now
And it's coming over you like it's all a big mistake

Oh, I'm holding my breath
Won't lose you again
Something's made your eyes go cold

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now, I'm haunted

Stood there and watched you walk away
From everything we had
But I still mean every word I said to you

He would try to take away my pain
And he just might make me smile
But the whole time I'm wishing he was you instead

Oh, I'm holding my breath
Won't see you again
Something keeps me holding on to nothing

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
You're all I wanted

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't turn back now, I'm haunted

I know, I know
I just know
You're not gone
You can't be gone, no

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Something's gone terribly wrong
Won't finish what you started

Come on, come on, don't leave me like this
I thought I had you figured out
Can't breathe whenever you're gone
Can't go back, I'm haunted

You and I walk a fragile line
I have known it all this time
Never ever thought I'd see it break
Never thought I'd see it

Songs that make me emo #1

P/s: Hit the pause button at the bottom b4 proceed. tQ^^

Seriously, this video clips left a mark in my hearts.

I can take the rain on the roof of this empty house
That don't bother me
I can take a few tears now and then and just let ‘em out

I'm not afraid to cry every once in a while even though
Going on with you gone still upsets me
There are days every now and again I pretend I'm okay
But that's not what gets me

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

It's hard to deal with the pain of losin' you everywhere I go
But I'm doing it
It's hard to force that smile when I see our old friends and I'm alone
Still harder gettin' up, gettin' dressed, livin' with this regret
But I know if I could do it over
I would trade, give away all the words that I saved in my heart
That I left unspoken

What hurts the most
Is being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do, oh
Oh yeah

What hurts the most
Was being so close
And havin' so much to say
And watchin' you walk away

And never knowin'
What could've been
And not seein' that lovin' you
Is what I was tryin' to do

Not seein' that lovin' you
That's what I was trying to do, ooo

 ...... this reminds me of how I like this 'someone' who I know will never return my feelings because,,,,,,, 

Even though we talk naturally,

I keep wishing one day he would open his eyes

and show it..

or else not seeing that loving you,

that's what I will trying to do......

Christmas Spirit arrivaL..

Hohoho...in my Christmas spirit already since... last week I guess. ^___^ I wonder why it comes so early this year. haha :P Btw, currently I am listening to this Michael Buble song from his latest Christmas album, entitle Christmas (Baby please come home).

(p/s to MR. ehemm. sa rasa ini lai 2 lagu yg kita dgr that day. Can I have the full album before hoLs?)

 WoW! so FA LA LA LA LA in my room. ngee~ enjoy..

Aku selalu salah

Selalu salah </3 Geisha

Dulu memang kita saling bersama

Ku mengira tulus dalam kata

Tapi kini kamu memang berbeda

Ku terluka untuk selamanya

Caramu yang membuat diriku jauh

Kecewa di dalam hatiku

Ku tak mengerti cinta

Indahnya hanya di awal ku rasa

Mengapa kau benar

Dan aku selalu salah

Kini memang kita saling berpisah

Ku merasa sesal dalam kata

Tapi kini kamu memang bersalah

Kau berubah untuk selamanya

Sifatmu yang membuat diriku jenuh

Mendua di balik mataku

Ku tak mengerti cinta

Indahnya hanya di awal ku rasa

Mengapa kau benar

Dan aku selalu salah

Ku tak mengerti dia

Cinta ini bukan hanya kau yang rasa

Ternyata dia bukanlah pujaan dalam hatiku

Ku tak mengerti cinta

Indahnya hanya di awal ku rasa

Mengapa kau benar

Dan aku selalu salah

Ku tak mengerti dia

Cinta ini bukan hanya kau yang rasa

Ternyata dia bukanlah pujaan dalam hatiku

Ku tak mengerti cinta

" It's funny how we feel so much but we don't say a word,

we are screaming inside but we can't be heard"

Songs will tell

I love hearing a song I never heard before, noticing the lyrics are good, then Google for the artist, the title and next searching for it on You tube. Then I will see exactly what the lyrics say and how much I can relate to it. And yea! I'll enjoy the song so much more if the lyrics have a deep personal meaning in my life. I am not sure with you but in my thoughts, songs bring back a lot of memories from down the years too, whether its bitter or sweet. So relating a song to an event, time or a person especially could mean a lot if you hear the song again in 2, 3, 5 or 10 years time. It'll reminds you of it again.

I always found a great songs and lyrics from the girl in the pictures that I can relate to.

Well, pity you if you don't know her. YES! She is AVRIL RAMONA LAVIGNE. So far, it seems like every words in her songs is talking about my ups and down of life. And that's why I love her from the very beginning when her first album "LET GO" released. Her fourth album, GOODBYE LULLABY just released early this year and a big thanks to Mr. Sam Winchester for the full album! Most of the songs in her latest album was much more personal than the earlier records, with AVRIL describing the album as "more stripped down, deeper and very emotional." Well, I guess she knows what am I feeling right now and that's why she wrote the song all by herself.

Currently listening to these songs from her latest album and for sure 

the lyrics are awesome!

.....hye..do you know this feeling? When you realize that you lose somebody.. you lost this person in your heart. Because he/she forgot you. There was no officially Goodbye. Suddenly it feels like you and this person are strangers... hurm.

Saying: "When a girl asks a guy to listen a song, it's because the lyrics are all the words she's afraid to say."

Breathe Again

.....I am so falling in love with this song right now.

It's make my heart hurts a little every time I hear this, 

absolutely beautiful and heartfelt.

Music with meaningful lyrics and much more related to my life now I guess.

The best part of this song is the instrumental part right at the very beginning.

And I just can't get enough of the intro music..

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.

.

.

.

.

.

.

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...Just listen and let your heart feel...

<3 Breathe Again by Sara Bareilles <3

Car is parked, bags are packed
But what kind of heart doesn't look back
At the comfortable glow from the porch
The one I will still call yours?

All those words came undone
And now I'm not the only one
Facing the ghosts that decide
If the fire inside still burns

All I have, all I need
He's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands
Still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday
I'll breathe again, I'll breathe again

Open up next to you
And my secrets become your truth
And the distance between
That was sheltering me comes in full view

Hang my head, break my heart
Built from all I have torn apart
And my burden to bear
Is a love I can't carry anymore

All I have, all I need
He's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands
Still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday
I'll breathe again

It hurts to be here
I only wanted love from you
It hurts to be here
What am I gonna do?

All I have, all I need
He's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands
Still I'm searching

All I have, all I need
He's the air I would kill to breathe
Holds my love in his hands
And still I'm searching for something
Out of breath, I am left hoping someday

I'll breathe again, I'll breathe again
I'll breathe again, I'll breathe again
I'll breathe again, I'll breathe again

In diLemma

Every time you pretend to love,

you impoverish yourself more and more.

Love has a great potential to enrich your life.

But if you are just playing a role,

pretending to love,

it's only going to poison you.

Because you are teaching yourself

that it's just a game and slowly

but surely you will lose the capacity to open in love

at the end.

~~ A reminder to myself and people out there ~~

Is it too serious too soon???

WESTLIFE ~ Lebih dari kata-kata

Hye pals!!

Pernah dengar pasal WESTLIFE group??

WESTLIFE ni popular zaman2 saya sekolah rendah dulu. 

Group ni juga popular seangkatan dengan group BACKSTREET BOYS dan juga N'SYNC.

Zaman saya sekolah rendah dulu, boleh dikira saya ni

one of WESTLIFE punya diehard fan la konon.

I got their full albums dalam bentuk kaset.

Karaoke version mereka pun saya ada! hahaha

By the way, saya juga menulis dan mengumpul lirik2 lagu mereka ni.

dan saya ada 3 buah buku lirik lagu WESTLIFE.

Setiap kali ada gambar2 WESTLIFE di majalah saya akan gunting 

dan tampal dalam buku lagu tu juga.

Berita baiknya, buku lagu tu masih selamat tersimpan di bilik sehingga skrg. :)

Perkara yang lebih hebat lagi semasa zaman2 kepopularan WESTLIFE,

 ialah bilik tidur dipenuhi dengan poster2 mereka. 

Kononnya sebagai pembakar semangat untuk study

Kerana memang tidak dinafikan bahawa jejaka2 WESTLIFE ni memang

handsomehandsome belaka.

Al maklumlah kelahiran negara IRELAND kan..

Memang saya cair la dengan kekiutan dan kekacakan muka mereka ni. HOHO :P

Tambahan lagi, suara MARK FEEHILY yang very outstanding,

melts my heart like hot choc~~ wuuuu

Standing at the back, from left: MARK FEEHILY, KIAN EGAN, SHANE FILAN
Sitting in front, from left: BRIAN MCFADDEN (left the group since 2004), NICKY BYRNE

Salah satu lagu WESTLIFE yang paling22 saya minati

 sejak zaman-berzaman ialah lagu ni

"MORE THAN WORDS"

Sebenarnya mereka bukanlah penyanyi asal lagu ni, 

Penyanyi asalnya ialah kumpulan rock band EXTREME

tapi dinyanyikan semula oleh WESTLIFE group

yang mana saya rasa jauh lagi best apabila dinyanyikan secara akustik.

Lagu ni masih lagi berkumandang di bilik saya setiap hari.

Liriknya pun sudah dihafal setelah sekian lama.  :P

So, lets press the PLAY button and enjoy yourself! :D

The story behind these song :

The song was describe as a song warning that the phrase "I LOVE YOU" was becoming meaningless. People use it so easily and so lightly that they think you can say that and fix everything, or you can say that and everything is OK. Sometimes you have to do more and you have to show it because there's other ways to say "I LOVE YOU" just like what I did when I sing this song to the person I LOVE <3

* Jiwang Mode *

Owh kay, connect HD usb to laptop => open music folder => click Indon songs => right click n "play". then suddenly, Real Player play this track.. 

 The Rock ft. Ahmad Dani - Munajat Cinta 

Malam Ini Kusendiri

Tak Ada Yang Menemani
Seperti Malam Malam
Yang Sudah Sudah

Hati Ini Selalu Sepi
Tak Ada Yang Menghiasi
Seperti Cinta Ini
Yang Slalu Pupus

Reff :

Tuhan Kirimkanlah Aku
Kekasih Yang Baik Hati
Yang Mencintai Aku
Apa Adanya...

Mawar Ini Semakin Layu
Tak Ada Yang Memiliki
Seperti Aku Ini
Semakin Pupus...

Astagaaa!! am I look too desperate for love?? lirik dalam lagu ni betul2 reflect myself now.. *jiwang mode* mengalahkan orang bercinta pula. beh! but, seriously... 

'If you pay attention to the words of a girl's favorite songs. you'll find out everything that she's too afraid to say'

Today My Life Begins

Yayyyy!!

Come come n sing along at my bloG. Big Credits to Mr. Eric Spencer Benedict 4 da wonderful choice of song.. n also 4 helping me to redesign my blog.. I really need you favour here.. hehe~ (nanti sy spent ko aa.. *do remind me*) v^-^v

I’ve been working hard so long
seems like pain has been my only friend
My fragile heart’s been done so wrong
I wondered if I’d ever heal again

ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Yesterday has come and gone
And I’ve learn how to leave it where it is
And I see that I was wrong
For ever doubting I could win

Ohh just like all the seasons never stay the same
All around me I can feel a change (ohh)

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

Life’s to short to have regrets
So I'm learning now to leave it in the past and try to forget
Only have one life to live
So you better make the best of it

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins

I will break these chains that bind me, happiness will find me
Leave the past behind me, today my life begins
A whole new world is waiting it’s mine for the taking
I know I can make it, today my life begins
Today my life begins…

Artist: Bruno Mars

Thanx 4 da song Bruno Mars! :D